Why is that so bizzarre?
Because The Jam was a late seventies, early eighties Mod revival band and well.. just not very Goth. Not even close.
I love them anyway. Nyah!
I was flipping through my closet one day, trying to figure out if I should wear the lacy black slipdress or the simple red flowered sudress.
The inner dialogue went something like this..
"Hmm... black.. pretty. Very pretty. Almost sexy. No, not almost, very sexy. Would go great with my four inch plats and leather bracelets. Fishnets would be a nice touch."
"Oh, but then mom will get upset. You know she likes you to wear bright colors. Besides, you don't want to make the others uncomfortable, do you? You *should* manage to look fairly normal."
"True, but oh! I really want to wear the pretty black one.. why can't i just do what I want?"
(The cd player does random play right into "Ghosts" as I stand in front of the mirror holding the black dress in front of me... I actually *listen* to the words...)
"Holy shit... I've been fucking lying to myself for years. Bring on the Siouxsie... I think I've finally come home."
::red flowery dres promptly tossed onto couch and left there as I pu on my pretty pretty black dress, painted my nails a nice pewter color, and applied eyeilner::
(Okay, so maybe it doesn't seem that mindblowing to you but I guess that you'd have had to experience it to understand... or at least know me a little better...)
That ain't no ghost - it's a reflection of you
Why do you turn away - an' keep it out of sight
Oh - don't live up to your given roles
There's more inside you that you won't show
But you keep it hidden just like everyone
You're scared to show you care - it'll make you vulnerable
So you wear that ghost around you for disguise
But there's no need just 'cos it's all we've known
There's more inside you that you haven't shown
So keep on moving, moving, moving your feet
Keep on shuf-shuf-shuffling to this ghost dance beat
Just keep on walking down never ending streets
One day you'll walk right out of this life
And then you'll wonder why you didn't try
To spread some loving all around
Old fashioned causes like that still stand
Gotta rid this prejudice that ties you down
How do you feel at the end of the day
Just like you've walked over your own grave
So why are you frightened - can't you see that it's you
At the moment there's nothing - so there's nothing to lose
Lift up your lonely heart and walk right on through